I don’t always feel courageous. I often feel scared, worried, hesitant that my decisions will somehow negatively affect something or someone. Regarding times of chaos and crisis, I been asked, “how do you handle the stress?” or “how did you stay so calm?”
I remember saying, “Have you ever seen a duck floating around a pond? they just glide across the water, smooth and calm. But, If you look under the surface, you’ll see their feet paddling 90 to nuthin. That’s how I feel. I’m terrified but I somehow get through it.”
I was given this gift yesterday, a friend who started wood burning this year made it for me. She captured my love for horses and a life principle ingrained in me at childhood in one piece of art.
We had horses at the children’s home and at one of my foster homes (the one I lived at the longest-the one that is still family to this day). I’ve been around horses most of my childhood/teen years. Got to help break & train them as young as 11yrs old. the number one rule is no matter what happens, if you fall off or thrown off, you get back on that horse. No matter how hurt, no matter how scared, you get back on–even if its just a few minutes.
I hadn’t realized how that principle has somehow become applied to so many aspects of my life. No matter how scared, how hurt, how unsure, you show up, you do your best. You harness your fear and you get on that horse.